“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.”
I’ve given that advice to others more times than I can count — in fact, I’ve blogged about that verse before. Lately, I’ve had to take my own advice.
One of my sons is an adult who is intellectually disabled. He has been in residential care for 16 years, and for the last two of those, I’ve sensed it’s time for a change. Exactly what that change looks like is uncertain, and one of the challenges is that I am not the only person who has something to say about it.
Differing opinions and perspectives are valuable when considering options, but sometimes it becomes difficult when competing agendas put the team at cross purposes. The choices seem limited – leave the program without the State’s blessing and lose all benefits or continue in a program that is no longer appropriate for him. Lying awake at night thinking all these things through was taking a toll on me. Then I remembered these words,
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding,” and and started praying:
I trust You, Lord,
- to endow the decision makers with wisdom.
- to guide the decision-making process.
- to open the floodgates to creative solutions.
- to give me the words to communicate my concerns.
- to show me your plan for the child you entrusted to me 36 years ago.
- to foster open and respectful dialogue.
- to help everyone involved see my son as one created in Your image with infinite value.
- to encourage people to set aside biases and preferences for the benefit of my son.
- to provide the resources my son needs even if the safety net he has enjoyed for 16 years is no longer an option.
- to empower me to be a witness for You, even during conflict.
- to help me accept that whatever the outcome, You are still in control.
- to trust that whatever the outcome, You will ultimately use it for your grand purpose.
Suddenly, the weight of finding solutions was lifted from my heart. The peace that came over me was undeniable. My confidence shifted as I prayed affirmations of trust in the Lord instead of relying on my own limited understanding to solve the problem.
We have a long way to go. My heart still skips a beat whenever I see certain names on caller ID or on email messages. So, I take a deep breath, and say, “I trust You, Lord, to give me strength and wisdom to handle whatever is in this message.”
It is easy to feel defeated in a world that values human reason over Godly wisdom. But the world is no match for God. So keep trusting. God is working everything together for His glory!